Eijaz Khan's spiritual high

I believe in God, a Supreme Power, the Law of Cause and Effect. In my own ways, I have tried to understand Islam, the religion I was born into. I believe in truth. And I also realise that the universe tries to maintain a balance like any chemical equation.

As an engineer, I apply the concepts of physics to my life. For example, Newton’s law says every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Life can be as simple as that.

I believe we err because we are human. And I was no different. As an actor the acting seeps into real life sometimes. And I didn’t realise when and how I started acting all the time. Last year, was a game changer. I lost everything that I had gained in this life overnight. Friends, love, money, fame... everything... it was as if my personality and every extension of it was gone. I left the city never to come back. I went everywhere around India.

I stayed in Dharamshala where I felt it was easier to confront what I really was. I would walk from one village to the other not knowing where and why. I made a friend in Steve, a 70-year-old traveller, who would laugh at my questions. I would ridicule him for being an escapist. But only when I stopped searching, the answers started coming. What happened to me was what I deserved. The anger and hate left me. I accepted myself. And in turn accepted others. With their  virtues and flaws. I stopped lying to myself. That was my breakthrough.

I am just normal person living a normal life. I go for the Friday prayers at the mosque. I feel it brings me closer to God. I believe in analysing myself. My biggest guru  is with me all the time. I believe in God and He believes in me. God’s in my team.