Feel like just apologising for being a man: Anurag Kashyap exits MAMI board

In the wake of sexual harassment allegations against his former partner of the now dissolved Phantom Films- Vikas Bahl, filmmaker Anurag Kashyap has announced that he is stepping down from his duties as a board member of Mumbai Academy of Moving Image (MAMI). 

Taking to his Twitter handle, the Manmarziyaan director wrote, "In the light of the current events, I have decided to step back from my duties as a board member from MAMI until the shadow of doubt of our alleged complicitness in silence and not doing anything about it, is cleared."

Vehemently denying staying silent on the issue, Anurag's another tweet read, "On the other hand I vehemently deny to have stayed silent on the issue and not doing anything about it for years. 

Can't explain further to people who don't understand due process, legalities. Have been resilient through all accusations, keep flinging them my way."

In a series of tweets Anurag stated that the accused was named and shamed long time back. 

"The accused was named and shamed a long time back. For people who don't read the details and only the headlines, I have no response. A lot of women work with me and have been around, I am answerable to them and they stand witness to our actions and our struggle to do the right thing," read another tweet.

The critically acclaimed director then digressed from the accusations against Vikas Bahl and gave accounts of instances in his life.

"I feel like just apologising for being a man. I use to feel I have come a long way from growing up in a smalltown and today, I feel like somehow I am still there. There is so much I really don't see and also see others around me pretending to see and I feel 'inko bhi kahan dikhta hai'," he wrote.

Anurag also went on to say, "I was lucky to have had women who slapped me from time to time to turn that boy who at 18 told the girl in his class 'ladkiyon ko yeh nahin karna chahiye' to whoever I have become today. But I also wonder why and when did they stopped slapping me and thought it's enough. It isn't."

He further wrote about how the present time is good to introspect and see how we all have been complicit.

"Let the purging continue. It's as good a time as any for all of us to introspect , look into ourselves and see how we all have been complicit in so much,with our silence, forced by fear of consequence or by choice," he wrote.

Anurag Kashyap further gave an account of how he has reflected on his actions over the past one year.

"In more than a year I have questioned myself a lot, reflected on every single date I went to, every interaction of mine with the opposite sex, every encounter all that I could recall. And my greatest and simplest learning is that the line of consent is not just defined by 'No', most times it's before 'No' is uttered. And the line of consent depends on the person that owns the consent. It varies from person to person," wrote the 46-year-old.

He further explained that the meaning of consent cannot be simply defined and how it varies.

"It's our conditioning, even for the most woke people. Most of us are still learning , everyone who claims to know what it means , and I talk about us men , we really don't know . None of us know . It can't and should not be defined so simply. It begins with respecting the individuality and acknowledging the ownership the other has over herself, and continuing awareness of it. My mind has been restless over many day/nights and more I read everyone's accounts , it keeps adding to it," his posts on the micro-blogging website read.

Production house Phantom Films produced films like Queen, Udta Punjab, NH10 and many more, was dissolved on October 5. 

Anurag Kashyap and other members of the venture- Vikramaditya Motwane, Madhu Mantena and Vikas Bahl tweeted about the decision without citing any reason for it.

However, the decision came after a woman came forward and narrated her horrifying experience with Vikas Bahl, in a series of interviews with a publication. 

The alleged sexual harassment incident took place in 2015, during a promotional tour for the film Bombay Velvet. 

The woman also tried reaching out to Anurag Kashyap to speak about the incident. 

However, she said nothing came out of it and the issue wasn't taken seriously till two years later. Queen protagonist Kangana Ranaut also backed the woman's claims and gave her own account of how Bahl misbehaved with her on the film's sets.