Words have been my habitat, ideas my oxygen, writing the meeting ground.
I write about love and longing, history and heartbreak, sex and satiation, music and memory, gender and jealousy and yes- even gobhis and governments.
I will write about other things.
I will write about winter in Delhi (where I am visiting soon) and how the women bring out their choicest shawls and the men dress like they were in a Jane Austen novel.
I will write about how much I miss Mumbai’s three departed chroniclers-Busybee, Frank Simoes and Dom Moraes. (I wonder what words they would have chosen to describe what we’ve been through.)
I will write about the boys who sell books and magazines at traffic lights who I’ve come to befriend when they hitch rides off me from point A to B. All of them bright, enterprising, needy. All of them with the same story. (I’m working to pay off my school fees.) I once tried to find one at the address he’d given me to arrange for his fees-and was told no one by that name existed-but that’s another story….
I will write about Cat Stevens and his latest album after so many years of silence, which at first I didn’t enjoy but slowly began to appreciate.
I will write about small things. Ordinary everyday things.
How I feel bad that my eighty-two year old mum who’s not internet savvy is not able to read my blog- and I
don’t know what to do about it.
I will write about how confusing fashion forecasts are, and how I never understand whether blue is in or out.
I will write about Manto and how his stories never fail to move me.
These days I can’t write about such things you see. These days we write about grave and serious things. Lethal things. Sad things. Unimaginably hideous things.
But someday I will write about other things.
Soon.
Someday.